As I started to write this post i came to a sudden horrifying realisation.
I have never actually sat in front of a plain sheet (as in plain sheet, plain word doc, plain blog post template) of paper before with a blank mind. 26 years of life and Never.
Every time I have had a blank sheet there has been a predetermined agenda. I would always know what is expected of me, what is required by me, what i am supposed to do. Score marks in exam, study hard, write an email but never blank. Never have i sat with a blank page and never have i unleashed. Never let my pen run riot never let it flow out.
Even today as i sit here typing i am thinking if you would like my post. There is still an agenda.
So I am a man have who just realised that he has been writing and typing based on what others would like, what can be valuable to others, what is "supposedly" right. Now i think i may never have been in control of my life in first place.
When i started this post i wanted to discuss the purpose of my blog. Now i dont feel like it. I dont care.I will just let it flow
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